it's been a week alright

[demon chloe]

A hard one.

I take some medicine for one week a month and by the end of that week, it really gets to me. Different side effects that seem to multiply every month i'm on it.

The hardest one is the crying. Hard to admit that I can't control it and hard to handle while it's happening. So far this morning i've only cried once. I don't watch any Virginia Tech stuff on TV, I don't watch my doggles out the window because they LOVE each other and that too, makes me cry.

I can hold conversations, do tasks etc... but the tears don't stop... makes others feel helpless and at times makes them irritated cuz they think I should be able to control it....

Yesterday I started feeling itchy... today I woke up w/ a case of the spots. All over me. My face look like it's normal white self w/ pink teensy dots all over..... polka dots are in I guess.....

Anyway, it makes me want to hibernate. If I don't go out, then I can't make a scene if I can't control it....

Im going out today...it's gorgeous out and I have to do something to feel alive....

-grabs camera- [img]graemlins/camera.gif[/img]

[petenv]

Take some great photographs today Demon.

[Rogue Angel]

awww, amy... [img]frown.gif[/img] *hugggggs and hugggs*... i know what you're goin through... well ok, so i don't exactly understand the spots, lol. But the crying, yes. oh my dear god yes. forevermore and unstoppable at the times, it seems... don't feel bad, my demon friend... and don't be ashamed... if you are out, and you "make a scene", so what... pfffft. big deal... the people around wont' remember it 20 minutes from then, and it's probably a MUCH bigger deal to you than it is to them... hang in there, ok? [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img] [img]graemlins/kiss.gif[/img]